I want to immerse myself in art. I want to immerse myself in life, in love, in living. I want to immerse myself in fashion, in literature, in travel, in languages. I want to immerse myself in individuality and independence. I want to immerse myself in something that is greater than me. I don't want anything else to matter beyond that. I want to immerse myself in art, to see the world as a true artist sees it. A true artist can only see the world once he or she is willing and open to it. When we close our minds it's as if our peripheral is closed off and we are oblivious to all of the real, true beauties and lives around us. I want to see those beauties and lives. I want to feel them, I want to experience them. I want to capture them and interpret them. I want to be art. I want to immerse myself in life. I am tired of doing nothing, not living. Only when living will I be able to open my peripheral and see all of the art and beauties around me. I want to immerse myself in love. I want to be open to the once so unfathomable idea that someone can love me, that I am capable of loving back, and that I deserve love. I want to be wrapped up tight in love, I want to see love, I want to experience love, I want to feel love, I want to photograph, paint, write about, and interpret love. I want to see the world through the eyes of love. I want to immerse myself in fashion, creating my own theories and ideas about it. I want put together my own ensembles that, even if they don't make any sense to the outside eye, can be the child of my creativity. Fashion is not something that a secret elite somewhere far off creates. Fashion is there for everyone. Fashion is not something that can be seen and judged. Fashion is the interpretation of how we feel, just simply placing it in our wardrobe. Fashion is not meant to be strictly beautiful - oh, there are so many other adjectives that are available to describe it, both good and bad, appealing and unappealing. Everyone can have fashion, in fact everyone does have fashion, by default. We just have to open our eyes to individuality. I want to immerse myself in individuality, no longer defining myself by other's standards. I am me, and I am important in my eyes. So those who disagree or believe otherwise simply mean nothing to me. I will not be an unhappy person because of someone else's invalid, unimportant opinions. I am me, and that is who I've been from birth and who I'll remain until death and beyond. I cannot change that, nor am I trying to. The only worth that matters is my own, in my own eyes. I want to immerse myself in literature, travel, and languages. I want to create pictures and worlds in my head simply by words that I've read on a page. I want those words to pulse through my veins and show me feelings that otherwise could not be felt. I want to travel and see the world beyond what I know. I want to see the world through the eyes of others, I want to see what others continents away see every morning. I want to open my eyes to the differences in life that make us all so special. I want to learn languages, speak multiple tongues so fluently that my origin won't easily be discovered. I want to learn languages in order to immerse myself in those worlds of others that will only come after immersing myself in travel. I want to immerse myself in it.
Everything happens in circles, cycles, and rotations.
I want to make a complete orbit.