beauty in paintings

i remember seeing her paintings a while back and LOVING them but not knowing who the painter was exactly, but thanks to this month's issue of Nylon magazine, i've found out the the creator of these beauties is kime buzzelli.

I want to write beautiful words

I want to write beautiful words that flow together like a stream whose simple and soft currents never stop. I want to write beautiful words that will be everlasting like the trees whose leaves fall from the place that they were once so tightly held, still standing, with the quiet promise of them growing back tomorrow. I want to write beautiful words that even in subtle fragments can bring forth emotions that lie hidden deep beneath our surface. I want to write beautiful words that lie in bed with me at night, piecing together my life like a storybook. I want to write beautiful words that in themselves create a world of their own, left to be imagined and interpreted by others in whichever way they please. I want to write beautiful words that do not judge or place boundaries and limitations on this world. I want to write beautiful words that cannot be seen, only heard and felt.

I want to speak beautiful words.

i stood outside for an hour in 35 degree weather and snow in texas

i need to get myself back.

i miss me.








birthday tomorrow


"throw the thought of us away,you'll be alone this holiday,"


I think that it's about time that I let you go. I've completely lost myself largely because of you and I'm tired of you bringing me down. It's about time that I came from under your controlling grasp. My goal in life is to be happy and I refuse to do that with you over me like a black cloud. I'm tired of you making me feel horrible, low, and incompitent. I'm ready to see what life's like without you.
I am my own person, not yours. You don't control me anymore.
I refuse to hold my opinions and bite my tongue for you any longer.

time goes so fast

but so slow

going over old stuff,

i'm glad to see just how much i've grown

and i honestly never thought i'd say that

and i just hope that i keep growing



i want to live in a tiny little place with hardwood floors and plain white walls that i can decorate and paint and draw on and hang things up on with lots of little nooks and crannies and little places that i can tuck myself away in and with lots and lots of windows that i won't put curtains on just so that i can see how bright it is and the world around me and people walking and loving and living life like i never thought i'd be able to, but that i will.

pick a star on the dark horizon

it ends with a tr-tr-tr-tr-tr-trickle

1 2 3 4 5 6 and 7

i don't feel like being around people today.

mediocrasy's a'comin knocking at my door

summer's OVERRRRR! it's pretty much a good thing, i actually can't wait to go back to school. BUT this summer sucked. it was completely boring, i did nothing, i didn't go anywhere, i didn't take as many photographs as i had anticipated, i didn't get a job like i wanted to, i didn't go to driving school, and i hardly finished my summer assignments (i have to do them today!) oh well, i personally feel more comfortable when i'm in school anyway. but i've realized that i've got to stop being so damn cynical and pessimistic all the time, it will get me NO WHERE in life; i've just got to suck things up and live with them. too much of life already has been wasted being a sourass.

things that i DID gain this summer were a better sense of personal style, both fashion-wise and artistically/creatively, a better sense of self (i believe?), i picked up a little french (well... the only thing that i can say in french is "I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SPEAK FRENCH," sad right?), and even though it was monotonous to excruciating proportions, it wasn't as psychologically stressing as last summer, which i had thought it was definitely going to be.

so i guess i can't say it was bad. it was okay. and now i'm ready to grow a little more. (:

i don't wanna go to sleep, 'cause i don't wanna wake up

bec parsons

i looked up a little fashion photography to pass my mind today, since it's been going in all kinds of directions. i liked these.
photographs by bec parsons.

blahblahblah, changechangechange

i'm tired of waiting for things to happen. if i really want to see a difference, i've got to make them happen for myself.

even though my ideas may be a little far-fetched...

so about two weekends ago my family and i went to louisiana to visit family, but i really really hate it there. luckily, this trip wasn't as bad as most, and the highlight of my trip was going to the myrtles plantation, built in 1796, which is supposedly the one of the "most haunted houses in america." there are plenty of alleged ghost stories about the place, and supposedly they have over "10 ghosts" haunting it (you should read up on it (: ) i wanted to do the "mystery tour" (the night tour), but my family didn't want to, so we had to do the daytime one. i had pictures, but now they've all been deleted (don't ask how.)

anyway, the cute little town of st. francisville, where the place is located, is honestly one of the most adorable little towns that i've seen. they have all of these huge willow trees, quaint little shops, and neighborhoods filled with nothing but historical homes, all of which were built around the 1800s. i loved it there so much, i'd like to go back there one day and take pictures :]

bestfriend|galleria

best friend


this weekend has been fun, the most that i've had thus far this summer.
but i've realized that i really am not half as sophisticated as i make myself out to be.
in a huuuge shopping mall, 3 stories high, with probably over a hundred stores, after "attempting" to find something nice for myself, i still ended up blowing off all of my money on ice cream and the video game arcade.

hah, some things never change. (:

i'mready for a breezeofchange to come blowingmyway

or maybe a big gushing wind of it.



ah, aren't we all?

i've decided that i'm going to start drawing more, again.
i remember how much i used to draw like, two years ago, then i stopped.
but there's sooooo much that i've yet to learn.

imissschool

drawn in english class, under 10 or 5 minutes.
bad bad, i know. i'm not exactly good at drawing, but i love it because it focuses my attention.
DAY PLANNER/AGENDA.

littlekid'sparty

i went to jb's house today for her little sister's "play" birthday party and her older brother's graduation party.
it was fun, i must admit, but i'm still lacking proper socializing skills.
haha (:
but, oh well, she spilled a snow cone on my WHITE dress so, i had to wear hers.

highlight of my day.

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